unfinished business

shit im workin on at the moment
lines from unfinished poems and such






it wasnt just that freshman fifteen
see what they called pregnancy, she called a parasitic infection



it might just be that my selective memory wont allow me to call forth the bad times but
i miss you



he said it like he loved me and i listened like i believed him



my mother never loved me and this she made quite clear
straight up said, "Bitch. i never wanted you"
and well
i guess her honesty was refreshing
no need for second quessing
can't miss what you never had, right?



if i wanted you back,
i wouldv'e told you i wanted you back
but since the words didnt come out my mouth
boy u better figure it out



destructive
thats just the way our love was
it took me 5 years to quit you
spent approximately 3 of those 5 years crying every other day
had a bald spot for each one of those years that had me stressing
see apparently my body had sense enough to reject you even if my mind didn't



"i could love you if you let me"
simple words he whispered right before he left me and it fuckin hurt
like truth often does
see he went the way of double dutch and training bras




see
im fly
and tho it has absolutely nothing to do with the span of my thighs
i wont lie.
them shits have a power all their own
have fell men 200 plus pounds grown





blah blah blah
wats new folk?
no really
i wanna know

so...
wats new?
nothing much goin on over here

school
sigh
i hate friggin papers
loathe them

work
grimace
need to win the damn lottery

i did take the damn weave out tho
a bootleg trim and crap
camera whoring to follow

i swear
it's like the fro is a fucking homing beacon to all the dudes looking for a damn black girl fantasy
2 russians
an italian and a jew
smh


How far do u expect to get when u start out with "I've been looking for a nice black girl"
wtf
go hit up a damn 2 dollar ho and step out my way

camera whoring commencing in
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done
yall know yall love the side eye


its grown quite a bit since the days of old


still about 2 years til the big ass afro tho

ima b a beast


and just cuz me and mos def had a very good time last night (in my dreams but it still counts dammit)

The Panties - Mos Def

Fuck a Swordsmith, Wordsmith is Where It's At

Well actually...
id rather fuck a wordsmith


Words can be sexy as fuck
i fall in love with spoken word artists every 5 seconds
ok days
same difference
alliteration
metaphor
imagery
i get hot n shit
wanna start doin some stuff





Went to the Soundbites poetry festival
had a great time
Some really great pieces were performed
Issues ranging from child molestation to "accidentally" getting ur foot stuck on some bad little kid's neck

some sick wordplay

im not on Slam level but i wanna be
my damn brain however is actin a constipated ass
we're gonna come to a truce one of these days

I haven't been reading as much as i planned to do at the beginning of the year

Recommend a book
im gonna make a visit to Strands in 2 weeks
head to Barnes n Nobles

immerse myself



Open Mic
10pm
this Saturday
Nuyorican
come along
u know u want to

REALLY THO

my 7th grade math teacher just friend requested me on facebook
wth is this world coming to?!!
should i add him?

u can decide his fate

lol

overheard in the nyc

"....Aint no fun in that shit
that shit don't get wet
that's a dry ass spot"

catching the tail end of a sidewalk conversation
uh
interesting

maybe i should mind my damn business

so yeah...no shanks.lol

Twas all good
a coupla fresh ones
(side eye)
a bootleg class clown or two
(this aint about u playa.this is my damn show)
but all in all
twas great
We watched some def poetry jam clips and wrote some bootleg haikus
i was too hype
lol

we're gonna meet up again this Thursday to get started on the poems they're gonna perform for the open mic and the slam
i already fake bonded with this one chick
awwww
i have maternal instincts yall
lmao
i gotta actually recite a real poem infront of the lil bastards next week tho
here's to hopin they aint chucking anything in the vicinity of my head

There were a few bootleg rappers too
hmmm
we'll see how that goes

one down, 15 million more to go

Im supposed to be doing some bootleg volunteering with some highschool kids n this poetry thing tonight
yay me for actually getting this crap started
yall know i procrastinate like a mother
Ill let yall know if them kids embarass the shit outta me

heres hoping i dont get shanked

ill update tonight or tommorow