Mercy

she said
she loved him
and her name was Lyric
he said
i aint want no conversation
but she thought they were makin love cuz the moves,
they mimicked
and she swore he could touch her soul and like waters wade in it
irony
cuz she was sleepin with dogs so she got ensnared like a
runaway slave caught
and now she's screamin to God
why u aint trouble them waters?
pause
waitin on a response from the lord she rephrased her question
why you aint swing your chariot low to carry me home?
cuz im lost without you
i'm troubled in my mind and my spirit's weary aint got nowhere to go
sure can't... return back home
heard talk of a balm in Gilead
Can it restore my soul?
mend my heart and
render me whole cuz
im shattered and broken
spirit arrested while waiting on that token
of mercy
as they stare and they whisper
Y'all heard bout Lyric?
yeah that fast tailed lil girl got herself with child
Lord they speak on things they do not know and noone
(i saw pa in Church Sunday he looked right thru me
ma?...ma she had sadness in her eyes but
she passed me by ..)
Noone knows but so much conjecture
Lord i aint yet reached that point
cant utter them words
no..."Forgive them Lord for they know not what they do"
I am not yet that strong
I want destruction visited upon their heads like the
like the ten plagues of Egypt
one
for every man they had the nerve to claim i've slept with
aint it funny how sometimes we find the worst ones in church?
same ones
who'll catch the ghost and
trail tears behind your hearse
be the ones who spread lies that bind with no care of the harm
to heart
or mind
But as she screams in pain
ramshackle cottage her resting place
with her last breath she releases her daughter's name
Mercy
and prays
for absolution

rhymes revisited-raindrops on roses

see he
knew i was having trouble being we
cuz all i ever knew was
being
me
and i tried to to get the hell out 'fore the other shoe dropped
cuz i wasnt tryna
have my heart stop when he'd inevitably say
i gotta go my way and i had fun but
i gotta go
gotta leave
so i'd beatem to the punch
with that one two punch talkin bout i had a lot of fun and stuff but
i think its best if we let this shit rest
truth was i didnt wanna have to put it thru the test
get my heart broken so i decided it was best if i
just let it slip thru my fingers
could look back and say
well
at least we had that 'yesterday'
and maybe
maybe
i was just afraid that things might
just be
okay

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i'm asking for just a little time
a little patience
these issues aren't yours
they're my own
and i'm not saying that
i'm wrong
or that you're wrong
but I need some space
and since you asked
i won't lie
because i don't know
how long i'll be gone

__________________________________________

these are a few of my favorite thiiiiiiiiiiiings

savoring the last slice of cheesecake



when my afro comes out perfectly round
twistout comes out just the way i like it

when i get kids to laugh

catching an Alvin Ailey Dance Theatre production


going thru old pics and going : What the hell was i thinking???!!!


the day after i go hard at the gym and feel the soreness down to my friggin bones

watching reruns
The Cosby Show
A different World
Living Single
Martin

remembering old shows i'd forgotten even existed
the Land of the Lost

Dinosaurs



buying a new pair of shoes


being proven right yet AGAIN

when a fine lookin man tries to talk to a sistah when she's lookin a damn mess. Talkin hair tied with a burgundy scarf,red baggy sweats and green t-shirt, no makeup, eyebrows aint been did. I be like what??!!!

watchin old folk argue

watchin old folk in love




walking around the MoMa

watching PBS late at night.
if u don't, ur missing out

dancin like a crackhead
speakin of dancin like a crackhead

my ass got tagged

So Krush decided to tag my ass

Two Names you go by:

1. McLaren

2. Dej


Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:

1. black cotton boyshorts

2. two year old black NIKE Dri-Fit racerback tank with red piping (94% nylon/6% spandex)


Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:

1. passion

2. incessant laughter


Two of your favorite things to do:

1. dance like a crackhead prostitute minus the loot tryna breakdance on 5 inch stiletto boots

2. Watch Law and Order SVU


Two things you want very badly at the moment:

1. a rich, creamy, decadent, 'almost as good as an orgasm' Cheesecake

2. a six pack


Two pets you had/have:

1. 2 parakeets (they killed eachother)

2. 3 Carassius auratus (goldfish that my brother killed by peeing in the fishbowl)


Two people you think will fill this out:

1. Aaqila

2. Tenacious


Two things you did last night:

1. watched the Last Samurai. That's my shit right there.

2. took a stroll down memory lane


Two things you ate today:

1. chicken salad

2. fish


Two people you last talked to:

1. bff Andrani

2. cuz Patrice


Two things you're doing tomorrow:

1. heading to church

2. reading the rest of that cheesy romance novel


Two longest car rides:

1. stuck in the church van for 10+ hours heading from Philly to Canada for a wedding

2. stuck in the back of my uncles toyota corolla for two hours beside some lil boy who didnt know how to keep his hands to his damn self


Two favorite holidays:

1. Thanksgiving. I feel bad for the Native Americans but...i love me some thanksgiving dinner

2. Christmas. Don't celebrate it but them days off are appreciated


Favorite beverages:

1. water

2. apple juice


Person no longer alive who you'd like to talk to:

1. great great great grandpa on dad's side

2. Van Gogh


aaqila, tenacious, thicster, paj yall got next

Memory Lane

what was this lil boi thinkin???
he gon look back and see he was actin a damn mess




Who said:
"Saturdays are good.
Hamsters are good.
Birthday parties are real good.
Drugs are bad. I don’t do drugs."?

what u know bout the Puzzle Place?


please let this be a normal fieldtrip
With the Frizz????No way!!!!


reading rainbow




Shining Time station

Reach for the steam,
reach for the whistle
Go where the railway runs
Reach for the words,
reach for the story
Follow the rainbow sun
To a shining time station
Where dreams can come true
Waiting there for you

Lambchops Play-along
I stayed singin
'This is the song that doesn't end'

Joe Clark: Go on. Jump!
Thomas Sams: No, sir. I don't wanna jump.
Joe Clark: Yes, you do! You smoke crack, dont ya? You smoke crack dont ya? Look at me, BOY! Don't you smoke crack?
Thomas Sams: Yes, sir.
Joe Clark: You know what that does to you? Huh?
Thomas Sams: No, sir.
Joe Clark: It kills your brain cells, son. It kills your brain cells! And when your killing brain cells your doing the same thing, only it slower! Now, I say if your gonna kill yourself, don't fuck around with it. Do it expeditiously! Now go on and JUMP!
Thomas Sams: No! No! I don't wanna do it!

Chief from Carmen SanDiego needed a good lay or something.
The bitch wouldnt get off Mr. Clark's nuts

and that bathroom scene

one of my faves


The next time we see sky it'll be over another town. The next time you take a test, it'll be in some other school. Our parents, they want the bestest stuff for us. But right now they gotta do what's right for them, 'cause it's their time. Their time, up there. Down here it's our time. It's our time down here. That's all over the second we ride up "Troy's bucket."

Gooneys never say die!




I want a mogwai for Christmas son!!!!



ghostbusters



little shop of horrors






Teen Witch
Yall remember that rap scene??

that was a HELL NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! LOL

Come on now
Who didn't see Dirty Dancing????
Nobody puts Baby in a corner!!

Patrick Swayze could get it!!!!!

ima leave yall wit this
ease on down
ease on down the road



to be continued at some later date

Train of Thought

As i sit here
beside the second floor window
it's 3:00 am and you have yet to fall asleep
the moonlight enters and like stage lights
head directly for you
Forward and backward we move
and i can't help but smile at your stubborness
He looks just like his daddy, they say
he acts just like him too i respond
and now
while it's just me and you
hearts beating as one, call of love
I give to you all my hopes for the future
devotion, passion, contentment
don't lose your zeal for all things you believe in
but don't let your obstinate nature render you unyielding
We fall hard
that is, when we fall
in all things including love
i hope that you inherit my sense of compassion, empathy
They say walk a mile in another man's shoes
i'm asking you to imagine never owning them
i imagine for the future, a young man
not afraid to stand for his ideals
knowing that his worth is more than what he makes
infinitely greater than what others may say
and although i don't know how much time we have left together
i hope that when this letter finds you in the future
you'll understand

NEXT
not so random:train of thought


I believe in miracles
Where you from?
You sexy thing
I believe in miracles
Since you came along
You sexy thing



I've had hot chocolate only once.
Threw up and said
I'm never touching the shit again!!!!


nausea, heartburn, indigestion
upset stomache,
diarrhea
anybody else did the dance?


You know what would be digusting?
If someone had diarrhea and was throwing up at the same time
Wouldn't know which end goes where...lol

Do the ends justify the means?
Don't always know do we?
Sometimes you won't be able to figure the outcome until years later

I've always wondered if i'd be one of those youth participating in the sit-ins or taking bus rides down south to register black voters or marching with MLK jr.

I'd like to hope i would

I've participated in protests and marches but honestly, can't say if i'd head out to the streets if i thought i'd get hosed, beaten, or attacked by police dogs




Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere.
-Martin Luther King Jr.


“Never again.” was the cry
Nazi Germany




Rwanda



We sit back and watch the Darfur genocide.

Why the fuck are we just watching as history repeats itself????!!!!





What happened to 'not on my watch'???

fuck a swordsmith, the word is mightier

My father being an immigrant and not having a full grasp of the English language, would make me go lug the Webster's dictionary to look up any words he didn't know. God forbid i asked him for the definition of a word. He'd give me this face:

and tell me go get the damn dictionary. Needless to say he was annoying at times but damned if my old man didn't know what he was doing. I always give props to my dad for teaching me the value of education (whether it be formal or informal) and instilling in me at an early age the importance of seeking knowledge.
Which is why his ass was tryna take credit for me getting a perfect score on the verbal part of the SAT'S but i digress

My pops is one of the most intelligent people I know
Knows more bout the goings on of U.S. government than i do

Always tryna make me read one his favorite books
spoutin history
he's still waitin on me to finish The End of America: Letter of Warning to a Young Patriot

Here's Naomi Wolf discussing the premise of her book

and the old man is getting on my damn nerves with all his NPR talk
If i ain't listened to it in a few days, he gives me this bootleg 'i'm ashamed. u r not the daughter i raised' look
get over it

and my old man can dance too
I got the good genes...lol

My dad's english has come a long way since my elementary school years but I can't help but laugh when he says stuff like "oree op eef you wanna go too the bitch" Well that's what it sounds like atleast. I know he means beach but it's hilarious nonetheless.

My nickname for pops is 'Haitian immigrant'

speaking of Haitian immigrant
me and my dad died watching this.
I don't know. You might not find it nearly as funny if you're not Haitian, but you should get a coupla chuckles or atleast a smile out of it.



You know what i can't stand?
When fuckers assume you're dumb because either you can't speak english well
or you speak with an accent
Okay this is where i tell the truth and shame the devil
I laugh at accents too BUT.....
I don't assume the person with the accent is less intelligent. Truth be told, our folk in the U.S. got some catching up to do with the rest of the world. Our educational system is shitty as all hell.

I have a thing for literature,
rap,
the spoken word,
poetry what have you

Here's a few def poetry jam clips


Steve Connell: Territory


Gemineye: Penny for Your Thoughts


Sunni Patterson: We Made It


Black Ice

TMI-ooh baby baby-push it real good

Guess who's pregnant?
Actually i guess the question should be: guess who's not pregnant?
cuz everywhere i friggin turn another person is getting pregnant or poppin something out their vagina (a few c-sections thrown in there but u get what i'm sayin)

Ever saw a live birth?
Man i don't care how much you want kids. That shit is not beautiful
Yeah you'll think about it later and spout shit like: The day God gave me my lil Jayjay Aybaybay Beebee-Morris Starsky jr. was the most wonderful day of my life". They might even mean it but trust, that's not what lil jayjay's mama was thinkin when she was tryna squeeze his linebacker shoulders past her cervix.

I ain't tryna get struck down or nothing but we women got the raw end of the deal
I done had me some convos wit God about this
We gotta be the one's getting shafted.pun intended
Menstrual cycles (fuck evolution. Shouldn't it have done away with the whole menstruating mess eons ago?)I mean it serves no damn purpose. Bleeding like a friggin stuck pig.
and last but not least, the pregnancy thing

I'm just sayin tho.
God coulda evened it out some
how bout the dudes have kids?
or at the very least breastfeed
Folk always talkin bout 'man up'
how bout u 'woman up'? punk ass motherfucker

and no i'm not PMSing

You know what gets me? Guys talkin bout they afraid of what their wives/girlfriends/babymamas are gon look like after they have kids. Praying they gon maintain their shape. Well hell. Atleast if ole girl puts on 50 pounds she had an excuse. Your ass wasn't pregnant but you sure don't look the same way you did when she got wit u. All i'm sayin is if i go out wit my husband and he orders me a salad, i'm giving him the look of death and ima handle his ass when we get home.

Baby can i get some?
some what?
ass?
How bout hell no. Not 'I have a headache' or 'i'm tired' or some other shit like that
You not getting none cuz you was acting like one earlier today
moral of the story is: u act like an ass, u get no ass
unless u wanna go buy urself a doll

speaking of dolls
check this shit out
SMDH




I don't need to hear bout lil junebug's first day of kindergarten. I'm just sittin here on the bus tryna get off in five stops so i can get home. You decided to sit ur old ass next to me (when the bus is practically empty) pull out ur wallet and tell me bout your grandson.Why? And i can't even catch an attitude wit ur old ass cuz ur ancient relic self might have a heart attack. See this fake smile that's not reaching my eyes?? That's me humoring you. Get the damn message and shut the hell up!!! Finally my stop is here. Oh hell naw. Why is this old lady bout to get off too??!!Please God, be a hip injury so i can make a hasty retreat.

Now i really dont care what other folks do like that
You wanna sleep with 10 girls/guys in the span of two weeks, more power to you
But when ur ass has to go on Maury 9 times and u still aint found ur babydaddy
or when you done fathered 6 kids by 5 different women
You need a friggin intervention
I'm not saying forced sterilization is right
but hey.....

isn't she so cute?
what im 'posed to say?
Hell no ur baby looks like a cross between quasimodo and Gollum?




"umm yeah...she is"
i had to catch myself before i could recoil in disgust and say what was really on my mind